Received a letter from my insurance notifying me that my STD (short term disability) is coming to an end in 2 months. Wow, have I really been off work for that long? After a year, LTD (long term disability) kicks in but its a whole thing! The insurance will want more forms to be completed by my psychiatrist and I need to PROVE I can’t do my job still. These days, the only thing besides the thought of returning to work that is causing me anxiety, is dealing with the insurance company. Just because I’m not in a wheelchair with 2 broken legs or some other physical malady, then I should be fine by now! That’s what they seem to think. I wonder what I need to do to prove I am not able to work. Do I need to harm myself?
My depression and anxiety are not getting better and lately, they’ve been worse. I have a dear friend who just had her ovaries removed and a hysterectomy yesterday and she will be home from the hospital on Sunday. I am expected to help look after her which is what friends do for one another. I am just so worried I will disappoint her in some way, as I am having a hard time looking after myself properly these days.