Today is brought to you by the letter “F” and I choose for it to stand for “FRIENDSHIP” as part of the A to Z Blog Challenge.
My theme for this Challenge is depression and anxiety and all that goes with it.
I don’t have a lot of friendships and that makes me sad sometimes. I have acquaintances but not very many true friends. I suppose this is because I have some character defect that prevents me from ever attracting people. Sometimes I say inappropriate things during conversations. I think it is because I never know what to talk about and my mouth opens before my brain edits.
I do have one really close friend who is a new friend but we have quickly bonded over our weirdness it seems. It is an unlikely match on paper but I suppose that is true of most great friendships.
- I am a dog person, she is a cat person
- I am gay, she is straight
- Her tastes in decor and clothing are totally opposite mine
- She’s a vegan, I love meat
- She is 12 years older than I am
The list goes on and on but we do have things in common and have just bonded. I guess I shouldn’t over analyze the situation or I might drive her away, like so many before her. I had tried nurturing friendships in the past but they seem to crash and burn during the honeymoon phase. I often wonder if me being gay, it might seem like I am coming on too strong for their liking.
As I am writing this post, my friend that I am writing about, Facebook messaged me. I made cookies last night and will be bringing them over for tea to her place this afternoon. Nice. Let’s hope I don’t screw it up somehow.